the day before

so... for the last week and a half i have been kinda eating clean. several cheats throughout the day. i worked out 5 days last week, and although i LOATHE the process, i did feel better after... but NO weight loss leads me to believe i need to do this for real.

what really brings me to wanting to make this life change is i recently have met my biological mother. i am 41 and am a single mom to an amazing 2 and a half year old. i have found out that both my biological mom and dad have heart issues. ugh!!!

i am about 40lbs over weight, and have never been a healthy eater, or an exerciser. but i want a long life with my son, so i will make these changes. especially knowing that heart disease runs in my family.

my roommate has started back in school for holistic nutrition, which is why we are eating clean. so why not??? last dinner out tonight - BOA Steakhouse - yum!! then i am all in!

i weigh about 175 and i look horrible! catching glimpses of my reflection is disturbing!!